As I am only a couple of weeks away from commencing maternity leave ready for the birth of my first child, now seems like an appropriate time for a bit of reflection…
Two Babies Conceived
September 2011 marked the official launch of Zest eBiz. Roughly the same time (although unknown to me at the time) my baby was conceived.
Over the months that have passed I’ve watched both of my babies grow in awe; from initial thoughts about starting a business, or starting a family, to making the commitment to go for it and then every stage of development since then.
Making the decision to start a family was almost easier for me than the decision to start a business. In both cases I had the full support of my partner, but I guess I felt like we were more of a team when it came to starting a family.
Starting a business on the other hand came with a lot more fear and anxiety for me. What should my business look like? How will I get started? Could I manage it out of business hours as well as working full-time? What would people think about me going into business, or my business itself?
It took one defining moment last year to help me realise that I did really want my own business…
The Decision to Jump
Steve Jobs had passed away and the internet was flooded with his inspirational words of wisdom. The quote at the top of this post really spoke to me. So much so, that I turn to it every time I need strength, or that little bit of encouragement.
Soon after reading this quote I was working through a difficult decision with my Life Coach. Being the amazing professional that she is, she always listens to me and in traditional coaching style asks the right questions to get me to explore the answers I’m searching for myself. However this day she’d obviously had enough and simply said to me:
“I feel like I’m standing on at the top of a cliff with you and you keep asking me, ‘should I jump?’”
This hit home for me. I love all things related to adrenalin sports (like bungy jumping backwards in the photo above), so that metaphor was like turning a light on inside my head.
That week I had one of my proudest moments at work. I defended the decision I’d made, to one of the senior managers on site, not to commence longer hours that the majority of other engineers were about to commence due to the nature of the project we worked on. His question as to whether I was worried about how this would be perceived by others in the company would have once affected me and caused me to question my judgement. However this day it was like adding fuel to the fire! I confidently replied along the lines of “no, I’ve worried about what other people think for too long”. I justified my reasons for not wanting to change my working arrangement with assurance knowing that I believed, finally, 100% in something I wanted to do and I was not going to be swayed this time.
Grateful for Healthy Growth
From that day forward Zest eBiz has grown into what it is today. Not a huge company, but rather the fruit of following my passion. I’ve been amazed at the wins (small and big) I’ve had along the way and the interesting and inspirational people I’ve met. But most importantly, I’m amazed at the feeling I get every time I coach a client. It’s second to none. I have to pinch myself to remind me that I’m getting paid to do what I love!
I hope this has inspired you to find the courage to follow your heart and intuition. Take 10 mins to think about that one hurdle standing between you and what you desire…
Now go and confront it head on knowing that your heart and intuition “somehow already know what you truly want to become”!